leaving.

i might throw up.

i'm moving.
the boxes are being packed, unpacked and repacked.
it's an incredibly complicated process.

on the 21st of july around 9 a.m. central time i will be saying goodbye to the dallas skyline until the month of december. i will be flying out of my beloved dfw on a one-way ticket to a little place i enjoy calling "the district."

there, around 6 p.m. eastern time, i will be greeted by my best friend at a baggage claim where we will claim two large suitcases which will then be routed directly to the metro and onto a comfy apartment in arlington.

yes, i am moving.

you ask, "brianna, you're crazy. you said you were staying."
as any good reporter knows, don't put anything in print unless you know for certain. which is why we thank God for the internet where no ink has to dry and our mistakes can be seen
faster.

staying didn't feel right. dallas didn't feel right. the sun seemed hotter, the asphalt brighter and the air dirtier.

dc just feels right. it felt right in january. and it felt right in july. and it'll feel right until it's time for chicago which also feels right. i'm feeling a lot right now.

i don't have a job. i don't have an internship. i have a small bank account and a couple of credit cards in case of emergency. this is me - leaping. either rocks or waves will be at the end of my jump, here's hoping to waves.
i've applied to a couple of internships that i would love love love to do. of course, only fate can tell me if i am meant to do this. if not, then there will always be something else. i learned to follow my instinct a long time ago and it hasn't let me down yet.
i'm still scared. and sad. and lonely. and excited. and thrilled. and expectant. and second-guessing. it wouldn't be an adventure, it wouldn't be life, without these emotions.

i am strong enough for this. that's one thing i forget. what i've accomplished, overcome and survived. we all need to cut ourselves a little slack.

so here's to hoping for the best. praying for the future. believing in oneself. and having supportive loved ones.

please send thoughts, hopes, prayer, well-wishes or any other amount of positive karma or extra currency my way.

"yesterday, when you were young, everything you needed done was done for you. now you do it on your own but you find you're all alone, what can you do? ...but in the end, the only steps that matter are the ones you take all by yourself." - the weepies